i sit in here.. thikin` of you and and thinkin` about our lives and what we used to do together.. we had a lot of good times and a lot of bad times.. but even though we had so many fights, and even though we used to argue a lot.. i know one thing for sure.. that i cannot see my live my life without you in it..

it’s hard for me being apart from you.. everyday i’m looking forward to when will be together again.. so that i can show you how much i missed you and how much i love you.. you’re a part of my being.. you mixed with my thought even the most studious, and instead of disturbing them, you give them greater harmony and spirit.. my mind demand to think of you, my body breathes only for you.. you..!! allows me to survive.. my heart has been yours from the beginning.. the first time you hold my hand and held me lose in your arms.. i felt longing to linger a moment and a lifetime in that soft warmth comfort i found in you..

beh, i know our road has been very rocky lately, but im sure this will get better soon.. i’ll always love you no matter what happens.. we’ll get through this.. just like what you have said, this is just a test of how much we really love each other.. and when you told me that your gonna prove to me that you really love me and that you love me more than i do for you.. you just don’t know how happy i am hearing that.. no one can love me more, no one can love me better.. more than you do.. no one can compare your love for me, and i thank you for that love.. that love which inspires me, makes me strong, and gives me hope each and everyday..

i keep on reading your past text messages.. printed out our ym conversations, always hugged the cudler you gave me, stare at our pix, took good care of |r|s.. because i miss you.. i miss you soo much.. and its the only way to ease this longingness i feel inside.. i try to keep myself busy, but a thought of you always comes in the way.. a fact.. that whatever i do.. wherever i go.. ur always in my mind, ur always in my heart, ur the one i’ll forever love..

i sometimes think, that maybe im being selfish.. wanting all of your attention.. wanting all of your time.. you’re so far away from me.. i’m just not used to it.. if only i can call you ever minute.. but i know that cant be possible.. that’s why felt so upset the other day.. you cant blame me.. i love you that much..well, trials.. there’s no really choice but to carry this burden, for we know that things like would happened coz we love each other so much.. but what is love without hardship and trials? for it is in that kind of test a strong relationship is measured, how long are we going to hold on? hmmmp`.. beh, i want our relationship to last for a lifetime.. remember the day we swore that we’d make this last forever..? im still holding on to that.. and i’ll always will.. i know we’ll overcome all of this with trust, faith, and love as our foundation.. and im sure together we can surpass every greatest storm..

i am ready for what may happened.. i am willing to get hurt.. i am willing to bleed.. i will withstand this hardship even if it’ll cost me my life.. see? im strong.. well, what can i say..? your love has given me the urge to go miles after miles, your love is what drives me, your love feeds my heart, your love is everything for me.. and i cannot live even just for a single second if you took that love away from me..

at night i get down on my knees and pray to God for brighter days, that He will give us courage and strength to make it through each day, and that what ever happens you wont get tired of loving me.. i pray that He will guide your heart to mine, i know He will, because im sure someday you will be here soon and you will be with me.. for i also know deep down you will find no love not more than mine.. but until that day i’ll never stop yearning for you and wishing that you were here to stay..

beh, i love you with all my heart and soul.. i hope you also feel the same way.. and i want you to know that im always being true to my words, this are not copied, not others opinion.. this words came from the very depths of my heart, this is what i feel for you.. and i guess even a girl like me could sometimes lose her grip of what a girl should be, but i dont care.. coz there’s no shame in love.. every part of it must be cherished and treasured.. beh, i’ll be waiting for you.. i swear my loyalty.. together with my undying love.. i pray for the best of us.. please take good care of yourself in there.. i just dont know what to do if i’ll lose you.. i miss you.. i miss you so badly.. again.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..!!

ill be waitin` for you..

P.S. please swear to me that you wont break any swears again.. :|

`freyah

*transfered blog from fs - February 05, 2007

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