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Stress and Sketch


Yes, I’ve been so stressed-out for these past days. I’ve been crying everyday for a really not sensible reason. Well, not for me. Yeah too many problems thats’ crowding over me. And everytime I go through this the only way to calm down and alleviate the emotion is to get a pencil and a paper and draw anything I want to draw. This is the other side of me. While I was making this I thought how cruel life is.

sketch

How we have to make very diffucult decisons, and I know in the end it still doesn’t matter.

How people sacrifices everything for the better, but better still couldn’t come.

How people judge for what they see but not for who you are.

How it is not easy to achieve second chances, while others who got it just wasted it.

How a pain can never be gone easily, yes maybe healed but the ail of the scar still remains.

How people excerts effort just to satisfy other but only end them up more unsatisfied.

And a lot more…

You might not have any clue yet of what Im talking about right now? Well, Family, yeah family problems. I’ve been suffering a lot from it. Yes I am in pain right now. I often times find myself staring blankly at the wall for minutes. Thinking about what happend. Why it had to happend. Why does it had to be like this. Why can both sides just agree? What’s with their pride? I really want to elaborate more about this, but I’d rather keep it private. I dont’ want to ruined hubby’s side of family. LOL. Hayz! Life is really hard. And we just have to live with it. Guess this wont be easy huh? Well, who says it is?

Thank God to that pencil + paper = sketch I was able to release my anger and other emotions in the drawing. At least I’m feeling a bit better now.

On the story, I know you already know about the latest buzz that had been spreading the blogsphere. Yeah Casey. When I saw the livejournal link on plurk, I was really shocked, because yeah she isn’t new in blogging. And yeah there were solid proofs. But what upset me was, other people didn’t even bother to talk with her first, but instead judge her instanly. I’m not being bias, because I’ve seen the evidence but at least lets hear both sides. I was once accused of a friendster layout code ripper before. I know the feeling of having so many people against you. You cant defend yourself, because no one is there for you, because you’re afraid they might not believe in you. You just don’t how hard it is to rise yourself up from a embarrassment. At least people be fair. Try listening to both sides.

Ok, so much for that. How do you find the drawing? I haven’t drawn for months already. Last drawing was some images of this current theme I’m using. The drawing si so sad right? *Sigh* And yeah I really need a new charcoal pencil. Ordinary pencil sucks. *Rawrrr!*


This entry was posted by freyah on Dec 18, 2008 under , , , , , , , ,

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